Wednesday, 20 February 2013

Introspection galore

So. Yeah. Slightly awkward to write a post again when you made and broke the same promise in your last post.
Resolutions wise, I'm 0 for 3 right now: I haven't blogged at least once a week (obviously), I missed a week of gym because of I overused my hamstring again (might be time to go to a physio..), and as far as the JLPT is concerned I got as far as ordering the books. They now sit in a stack on my desk, waiting for me to man the f*ck up.

Yeah, not so much.
This is partly due to laziness and internet addiction on my part, but also partly due to Life and Things and Adulty-ness.
After the last post things became kind of sucky, then got better, then took another nose dive and are now on their way up again. Needless to say that I kind of had enough on my plate to do any extra projects, and basically had me wondering for a bit why I even bother.
It's supposed to have at least an element of fun: the blogging, the gymming, the grappling with Japanese... So why should I feel like I have to?

So I put it aside for a bit, and have now decided that (at least for this blog) I will post when I feel like it, and when I actually have something to say. It might be funny, it might be serious, it might be a review, it might be me getting on my soap box. The most important thing is that I enjoy the exercise of writing again, and I've missed that in the past while.
I figured out that I go into avoidance/procrastination mode when I put too much pressure on myself to regularly produce stuff to a certain standard, and start reverse-psychologizing the shit out of things in order to not have to get things done. Which is why I have decided to relieve the pressure a little of having to blog once a week, and having to be ready for JLPT in July. I can still take the test in December. It's not the end of the world, and really the only one who will be all judgyjudgyjudgy about it is myself.

On another note, this introspection extravaganza does reveal that I would be a horrible freelance writer. There is no way whatsoever that I would have enough self discipline and motivation for that sort of career. Kind of a bummer, because 'being your own boss' sounds awesome, but I guess it's better to 'know thyself' and all that.

Anyway, just a bit of an update on how things stand here in the land of unnecessary but unapologetic wordiness, in case any of you random citizens were interested.

Big hugs to everyone who's endured my ranting over the past few weeks, and stay tuned for next time when I extol the many virtues of Nutella porridge.

Wednesday, 9 January 2013

New Year's resolutions: reason and unreason

So. The festive season is over, January 2013 is here:
is what it means for most people.

New Year's resolutions are very probably the promises most easily made and most often broken: they're usually overly ambitious, purely personal commitments, and have very few direct short-term consequences if they're broken. Not exactly the recipe for success.
Still, many people uphold this yearly tradition - myself included. The symbolic nature of turning over a new leaf in a brand new year is very powerful and lets you draw a virtual line under the indiscretions of the previous year: wiping the slate clean if you will.

Consequently, the gym that our legion of hopefuls has joined in the past week has been very crowded. To seasoned gym-goers I'm sure this must be the worst time of the year: suddenly your territory is invaded by all these newbies who don't know the rules, wear inappropriate clothing or even sit on one of the machines eating a Big Mac (true story from my co-worker). And then there's me, desperately trying to give out a vibe of "I'm different! I'll still be here next month!".
Because that's the other undeniable pattern that emerges: the gym that was inundated with new members in January, will be comfortably quiet once more once February rolls around. Such is the cycle of New Year's resolutions.

There are a couple of evergreens that can be ticked off every year: quit smoking, stop drinking, lose weight/get fit, save money... Every last one has been mentioned by at least one of my friends and colleagues (or myself, to be honest). It will be interesting to see which of us succeed.

While New Year's resolutions are undeniably admirable, I can't help but wonder at the arbitrariness of the day on which people decide to finally put these plans into effect: all December long (especially around the holidays) people build up to this iconic date when they will finally turn their life around.
Why wait? Why not start on April 1st, June 21st, or - heaven forbid - plain old September 3rd? Sure, there's the whole symbolism of 'a new year, a new beginning', but only if you subscribe to the Gregorian calendar. And surprise, surprise: a large portion of the earth's population doesn't.
For example, our Islamic friends just celebrated a new year in November (1434 AH to be exact), while the Chinese still have a while to wait for theirs: this year it falls on February 10th (Gregorian). Moreover, this last coming of the Year of the Snake is also recognised in South-Korea, Japan and Vietnam - though with less mass migration as a result. All-in-all quite a portion of the 7 billion.

So, to be short: the prime date for planning momentous personal change is entirely dependent on your geographical/cultural background; to other people it might well be just another regular Tuesday.
And to decrease the chances of success even more: because you can easily delay them until the opportune date, their implementation is rarely a matter of life and death. Sure, the long-term consequences of your twinky addiction might include diabetes, high cholesterol and obesity, but the breaking of your resolution by sneaking one of those golden bits of deliciousness (or so I've heard) on January 16th will hardly cause you to keel over dead.
As such, New Year's resolutions are uniquely suited to their name: if you don't make it in 2013, there will inevitably be another chance in 2014. And 2015, 2016, 2017....

Not to be a total downer, perhaps strength can then be found in numbers? Surely most of the western hemisphere is currently struggling to overcome lure of January retail discounts or other such vices; make sure everyone knows about your quest for self-improvement and team up with people with similar goals. You never know, it might just make the difference. At least you can complain about it together. 'A problem shared is a problem halved', right?

It's definitely not all abstinence and self-torture though: imagine the buckets full of money being made by gyms, for instance. For them, Christmas comes in January.


As for me, I will hereby publicly broadcast my own plans/goals for the year:

First of all, the main goal for this year is to pass the JLPT level (N)1.
Preferably in July, as well. For those in the know, this will look ambitious. But the first step has been made, the books have been ordered, and there's no way back.
To implement my own advice: any of my old J-studies buddies up for doing this with me?

Now for more continuous resolutions:
  • Go to the gym at least twice a week;
  • Blog at least once a week (I'll give a pass to last week);
  • Complete 2012's 2013's reading list as detailed on the other page;
  • Keep working towards my ideal job.
Where the gym is concerned, so far so good. It's only been one week, but still.




At any rate, I'll keep you posted on my progress.

To finish up: what's your New Year's resolution, if you've made one?

Tuesday, 13 November 2012

The Hunger Worm: reviews

Finally, as promised, the long-awaited joint reviews of Worm and the Hunger Games trilogy. So bear with me while I put my analytical hat on and dissect the hell out of this.

First up: Worm: The Story of the First Digital World War by Mark Bowden.

 The set up of this journalistic, non-fiction book is that of a 'real life' investigation, where the bare facts have been put into a narrative framework with added background and context to make it interesting and give some more colour to the story. Bowden previously wrote Black Hawk Down, which was also based on a true story; people who've read that will be familiar with the style. It has to be said that though colour has been added to the story, there is enough supporting documentation that I feel relatively confident in saying that this is how things actually happened.
The events in the book occurred in 2008-2009, and kick off with the discovery of a new type of worm virus; this is a type of virus that infiltrates your computer completely unnoticed and takes control behind the scenes to send replicas of itself to other unprotected computers on the same network. Some worm viruses spring into action immediately (like sending people spam emails in your name, or DDOS attacks), while others wait for a command from the creator. These 'sleeping' viruses can infect millions of computers at once, and thereby form a so-called botnet, which waits for instructions from the botmaster.
A small number of computer experts in the world has a day job discovering, identifying and destroying viruses and botnets, and identifying the botmaster behind it so they can be arrested. Some are with official organisations, others are singular, benevolent 'white hat' hackers, who view it as a personal challenge or a sport.

The particular worm that this book is concerned with received the moniker Conficker, and was the most sophisticated thing to date. By its rapid multiplication (finally halted at around 8 million computers) Conficker caused concern in all corners, except governmental ones. This forced the normally solitary computer 'geeks' to come out of anonymity and form an elite team - they called themselves the Cabal - to fight the botnet, which had a real capability to generate such a large attack on the internet as a whole that it could be damaged to its core and severely destabilise modern society.
These days, everything is reliant on computers and few understand the breadth and depth of this reliance. Governmental digitalisation, news agency interconnectedness, stock markets, flight schedules, you name it, it's all reliant on the internet and other computer networks. Conficker had even infected the Pentagon, which astonishingly did not seem to alarm the US government over-much: No one seemed able to grasp the far-reaching implications except for the Cabal.

Bowden presents these generally nerdy and antisocial geniuses as a sort of 'X-men', drawing parallels with superheroes in an obvious bid to make them look 'cool'. This is a shame, as the real facts of the story are already so mind-blowingly awesome that it seems a bit unnecessary to use this gimmick.

Interspersed with the main storyline concerning the battle against Conficker - which basically consisted of preventing the botnet from contacting the botmaster and receiving instructions - is the creation and history of the internet and the background stories of the members of the Cabal. This adds some variation to the narrative, and explains techy things that many of us take for granted ("it just works!") but of which we don't know the inner workings. Especially in a time when the actions of hacker-coalition Anonymous are frequently in the news, this is useful knowledge. Sadly, Anonymous itself and its DDOS attacks are not addressed. This would have made the book even more interesting and up to date; I'm hoping for a sequel or an expanded version to increase the timeliness of the book.

But the most mind-blowing about it all is, that there was almost no support from governmental agencies, especially the US government. There is still a shocking lack of knowledge of how the internet works and impacts the lives and safety of citizens, even beyond the cliché of 'Cyber Warfare' from China. The Cabal was ridiculed and forced to rely on the private sector (Microsoft's internet security section played a big role), and the fight was almost over by the time the government got the memo. For the time being, they have stabilised the worm and have it cut off from the botmaster. But everyday the botnet seeks contact and must be circumvented by the Cabal's protocols. The purpose of Conficker is still unknown, but speculation is rife. Another incomprehensible fact is that this has not been in the news anywhere (not in 2008, not now either) except for a small piece on WIRED, I believe. People are not aware of how precarious safety on the internet is, and how it is very like the American Wild West in terms of rules, structure and possibilities. There are people who penetrate the depths of the internet and can basically read and write in binary code: a mere string of incomprehensible 10101101's to the rest of us.

As to the book itself: it is not very long, every chapter starts with a quote from the X-men comic books (either you like it, or you find it corny), and the technicalities are explained in a very accessible way so that anyone with a basic notion of computers and the internet can understand what's going on. I read the e-book version, and sadly it does have a number of typos - especially in the titles and opening quotes. I haven't been able to confirm whether this is the case in the hard copy as well, but it unfortunately lends a cheap air to the book and makes you doubt its factualness and journalistic quality.
Despite this, I have to say I really enjoyed Worm and would recommend it to anyone with a fascination for hackers and the true, hidden heroes of the internet (not Steve Jobs or Bill Gates, as it turns out), or who wants to know more about the inner workings of the web.
The Kindle edition is priced (at the time of writing) at £7.43 and I definitely encourage you to get it!

Next up: The Hunger Games trilogy by Suzanne Collins.

Something completely different from Worm, but thereby no less enjoyable. The trilogy of the Hunger Games, Catching Fire and Mockingjay is the well-written young adult literature alternative to Twilight, and I would not feel outraged if it was put on the reading list for secondary school. Not being a teenager myself, I still found it an engaging, action packed, suspenseful and exciting read. The intrigue is not as much a secret to the reader as it is to the heroine, Katniss Everdeen, but this we can forgive her because she is preoccupied with not getting killed for most part of the books. Even as an adult, I don't think you have to feel embarrassed for enjoying this series.

As for the plot: there are definite influences from previous books and films such as Battle Royale. However, I think this extends mostly to the first book, which incidentally is the only one that has as yet been turned into a feature film. The other two instalments add many more layers to the story and change its direction, so that any accusations of 'copy-catting' are rendered obsolete, in my eyes.
As for the film: read the book first! Personally, I'm already in favour of reading a book before seeing the movie, as books tend to have room for much more complexity and sub-plots than films have (unless you're Peter Jackson and you're allowed to turn even one single book into three movies). But especially in this case - as explained in this video - all the complexity that made the book worthwhile is stripped from the script to deliver a simplistic action movie where the heroine must choose between two guys while trying to stay alive in the process, and sleeps in a lot of trees.
There is so much more to the story, and the brutal reality of such a dystopian future and its societal implications are thankfully rarely sugar coated in the way that is annoyingly common in children's/young adult literature. Bit by bit you learn more of the history and cruelty of the country of Panem, which spans the former North-American continent. Additionally, if you read between the lines there is actually some striking social commentary to be found.

The only thing that really annoyed me about this trilogy was the ending. I won't spoil it for you, but I felt that the last quarter of Mockingjay was rushed and not fleshed out enough to be a worthy conclusion to the story. The epilogue was also immensely dissatisfying to me, and in my opinion seems to be the simplistic choice of a writer who just wanted to be done with it, finally. This is a great shame, because up till then it felt like great care was taken with the story, only to be devalued by a lacklustre conclusion.

Despite that, I still think this is an eminently readable collection of young adult literature, and much more worthy of your time than the Twilight trilogy; if only for the fact that Katniss stands up and fights for what she believes in, and Bella merely goes catatonic for three months when her boyfriend goes away. Not to mention that Katniss does the rescuing while Bella is the quintessential damsel-in-distress. For someone like me who is all for female empowerment, the choice is easily made.


So there you have it! Finally, the reviews to books that are neither especially hot off the press nor must-read literary classics, but which a large number of my immediate social circle still haven't read. Therefore, I deem the choice of material justified and appropriate. And as always, my opinion is the one we'll be following here.
One of the perks of being the sole author of this blog, you might say.
Anyway, I hope you enjoyed my treatment of these books and will consider picking them up if you haven't read them yet.

Next blog post will contain an update of my appalling lack of progress in NaNoWriMo so far, and how I fare in my new job - which ironically requires a lot of phone calls (but is still pretty fun), which blog history can testify is my most favourite thing in the world, not.